Throughout June, rainbow-colored flags flutter outside restaurants, signs with mantras such as “Love is love” rest in windows and parades march through the streets of the city, all to celebrate Pride month. The LGBTQ event grew out of the Stonewall Uprising, a conflict between police and a gay club in June 1969 in Manhattan that led to protests and further sparked the gay rights movement.
Also this month, in a quiet, private room, members of a church apostolate showed up for a June meeting. A chaplain hears confessions as members pray the rosary, followed by a reading aloud of the five goals of the apostolate: chastity; prayer and dedication; camaraderie; Support; and be good examples/role models.
Afterwards, the chaplain gives a brief speech and the members take turns informing the group about how they lived the goals. After closing remarks, the group often goes out to dinner or gathers for another form of fellowship.
“Most people who come don’t miss a meeting,” said Fr. Richard E. Dyer, chief chaplain for the apostolate in the diocese.
The members belong to Courage, a church apostolate for people who experience same-sex attraction. They meet weekly or monthly, depending on the chapters, for confidential meetings. The group supports and appreciates each other, Father Dyer said.
For Courage members, June – like the rest of the year – is a time to continue living the teaching of the church in faith.
A new apostolate
Courage began in 1980 in New York under Cardinal Terence Cooke, who saw the need to support Catholics experiencing same-sex attractions and who sought to live chastely in accordance with church teaching on homosexuality.
The Catechism of the Catholic Church explains that homosexual acts are contrary to natural law, close the sexual act to the gift of life and do not reflect sexual complementarity. However, men and women with a homosexual tendency “must be welcomed with respect, compassion and sensitivity” (no. 2358).
Courage’s first meeting was held at a church in Manhattan. The following year, the members identified the five goals and chose the name Courage. The apostolate has spread to other US cities and Canada and now has chapters around the world.
In 2004, the Diocese of Arlington opened a chapter and Father Paul D. Scalia, then parochial vicar of St. Rita’s Church in Alexandria, was appointed chief chaplain. He is currently the pastor of St. James Church in Falls Church and Diocesan Episcopal Vicar for Clergy.
There was immediate interest. “Even before I started the chapter, some men had approached me asking for help,” Father Scalia said.
“We have church teaching and we’re good at teaching it clearly, but we weren’t as good at providing people with a way to live that teaching,” said Father Scalia, who considered courage as a means for the church to provide this support.
The first meeting attracted about ten men. Since then the apostolate has developed into two chapters with about 20 members.
“Attracted by the truth”
In the 1980s, as the Courage Apostolate formed and grew, Joe (who asked that his real name be withheld) and his wife separated due to his same-sex attraction. He started chasing the men.
Raised a Catholic, he knew his lifestyle was not aligned with church teaching. But he continued to attend Mass, and in 1992 he learned of the existence of a Courage Chapter in the Archdiocese of Washington.
“I basically knew I wasn’t happy,” he said. “I think everyone who enters the apostolate and has lived this lifestyle has recognized that it is not a happy lifestyle.”
He decided to attend a meeting. Nervous that anyone might see him, he drove to the scene early to make sure he wouldn’t be seen entering.
After the first meeting, the word that came to mind was “hope”. But, “I was in the lifestyle at the time and I had a partner and so I didn’t really want him to know I was looking for the exit…I didn’t have the guts to era.”
The following year, his companion died of AIDS.
“After that, it started the process of converting my heart,” he said. He returned to the apostolate in 1998 and has been a member for over 20 years. He is now involved in a diocesan chapter.
“What I found was a community of Catholics who wanted to live a chaste life,” he said. “I was led by the Holy Spirit to find the Apostolate of Courage.”
Garrett Johnson worked as a hairdresser, openly gay and heavily addicted to marijuana. By his late thirties, he was struggling and losing clients. “I was very isolated, cut off most of my friends and family,” he said. “I kept thinking that God couldn’t have created me just to get by.” Raised Catholic “nominally,” he said — his mother grew up Catholic and his father was an agnostic/atheist — he stopped going to church around the age of 12.
He continued to struggle, his marijuana addiction making him physically ill. Around this time, his mother came back to the faith and gently encouraged him. He quit smoking and became more involved in the church. He told a priest about his same-sex attraction, and that’s when he heard about Courage. He felt resisted, but he committed to going to five meetings. “What Courage was didn’t appeal to me much,” he said. “I didn’t like the idea of being responsible for my behavior, I didn’t like the idea of being connected to people.” Still, “I knew I had to be there.”
He attributes a Courage conference as the place where God made a change in him. Held annually, the conferences bring together members from different chapters for holiness and faith discussions, workshops, and prayer.
At the end of the conference, another participant put his arm around him as a sign of camaraderie. Johnson was resistant to physical contact, especially from men. “I felt something happen inside me,” he said. “It allowed me to be closer to men in a friendly, chaste and brotherly way.”
He has been a member of Courage for nine years now, attending chapters in Arlington, Washington and Baltimore.
“I’m drawn to the truth, which is what brought me back to the Catholic Church,” Johnson said. “What draws people to the church is…truth and love.”
The work continues
“(June is) a heavy month,” Johnson said. Most years he works on the Saturday of the Pride Parade in Washington and can catch a glimpse of the events through the living room window.
Last June, Father Dyer implemented a spiritual plan called C30: Countering Pride Courageously, to motivate Courage members to do more prayer, fasting and almsgiving for 30 days. Members can choose from a list of different daily, weekly or one-time activities. Additionally, he leads the chapter by following the book “33 Days to Greater Glory: Total Consecration to the Father through Jesus Based on the Gospel of John,” by Father Michael Gaitley.
This month and every month, Johnson said the church and other Catholics can lend their support by upholding church teaching. “Tell the truth, but help us carry the burden,” he said. “The best way (Catholics) to be helpful is to be honest with us and walk with us,” he said.
Courage also has a ministry for family and friends of people with same-sex attraction called EnCourage. These support groups began forming in 1987 to meet the spiritual needs of spouses, parents, friends, and others who had a loved one experiencing same-sex attraction. EnCourage now has chapters around the world, including in the diocese.
Joe said it takes courage to live a counter-cultural lifestyle.
“(Courage’s founders) knew it would take courage — intellectual courage, spiritual courage, and even physical courage,” Joe said. “To challenge the cultural whirlwind we are in.
For Father Dyer, the members of Courage are an inspiration.
“Members heroically live chaste lives,” he said. “(Courage has) been one of the great blessings of my priesthood.”
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